Not just plain,empty words.

I need to change. I've been thinking about it since last year, and that's a pretty long time to do any kind of thinking. But there's actually no options for me to ponder and choose, because God's word is law. Sometimes I wonder about the rebel inside all of us women. Am I secretly, without meaning to, rebelling against Him? These strands of hair won't help me find jannah, in the end.